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Aug. 16th, 2010

Down about 20 lbs.  Actually in the 240's now.   I can't remember being below 250 ....... ever.   I think there was like a sonic boom noise when i passed that barrier.  Any of the 3 people on my lj use facebook?  I'd love to reconnect... I use that more :)

SO much for that.

I weigh 6.6 lbs more than I did on January 1st.
Guess that whole diet thing didn't really pan out.
Anyway.  Day 3 of good eating.  Feeling motivated.  Wanna ride my bicycle.


I've been eating well for 4 hours.
Went to get coffee...
Actively imagined myself eating EVERY donut there.
I don't even like donuts.

Dis is what I ate so far...Collapse )


How it goes lately.

Not doin' so hot this week.
Went to Olive Garden for friend's birthday last night.  I feel like an endless pit lately.
I need to get back on track but can't seem to get there lately.
When I say "there"... I mean that spot were all the cosmos align right, and I can get myself to diet and exercise with some sort of vigilance.

School is swell. 
First day of school tomorrow.

Little problem on the diet this past weekend. No major problems, just not vigilant.
Oh... bought a Snicker's bar at CVS because it was 9 cents.  Not because I wanted it... just because it was 9 cents.

Alas... today's a new day.

Looking forward to the gym in my near future... so I can become psycho-obsessed with fitness again.
It seems when I go to the gym, the rest of my life just falls in place...
Maybe because I love myself more.

Voted today in Massachusetts special election!

Ups and Downs....

Life is good right now... I'm enjoying Starbucks on a Saturday morning.... catching up on blogs, news, planning for the semester.  I'm having fun watching all the people come and go.  And... it's actually warm for a day in mid-january - in the 30's I think.

The past couple days I've been finding myself soooo hungry.  I have been eating the same as usual, but I've been famished.  Yesterday I had a bit of a binge... but I still ended up under 2000 calories, so I'm okay.

Stayed up texting my best friend all the places and things I wanted to eat (she's on a diet too).  The list was long and obscene, but it made me feel better and I ended up going to bed satisfied.

Actually got some excercise this week too... took my friends dogs for a 3 mile walk... felt good even though I froze.  Even jogged part of the way... okay a very small part of the way.

I'm excited for the semester to start... I have about 18 credits left until I graduate... so this is a good thing.  I'd like to get it all done but I think I'll end up spreading and taking 3 or 6 credits in the summer.

I have had good news.  My boyfriend is from Haiti... but all of his family is safe.  Their house is safe... everything around it collapsed including schools.  I think part of my wanting to binge has been from watching these newscasts and feeling so helpless.  So anyways... thoughts and prayers to Haiti... 

A sucessful week or so.

When I started my journey January 1st, I was at 261.4 lbs.
As of today January 11,  I weighed in at 256.2.

Five or so lbs. - not bad.
My lowest weight since I can remember is 252.  Which was about 3 or 4 years ago.
I'd really love to make it below 250 within the next 2 weeks or so.  I know this is going to involve amping up my cardio.

School starts next week.  That means I can obtain a gym membership for a measly $48 (for 3 or 4 months).  Thus, there's no excuse.  At that point I am expecting the pounds to melt away.  I admit I could do cardio without the gym membership - I needn't wait... however each year as I age, I seem to loathe the cold New England weather more and more.  In all though, I really can't wait to get my ass in gear on the elliptical or in the pool.

In other news, I'd really like a new job.  I've sent out resumes and applications.  Anyone who reads this (if there is anyone... haha) ... send me good luck, wishes, prayers (whatever you do).  I need the karma.


Back in the Saddle Again.

Wowsers it's been a while.  I've been MIA for over a year.  I'm still trying to get my head out of my ass in every way possible.  So this is a new year.  I want more this year.  I want action... results.... you name it. Two thousand and ten is my year!!

lazy thursday

It's remarkable how much better i feel mentally when I'm not working.
I appreciate life more.  I hear birds.  I hear/see people going about life.  I notice things.  I feel part of the world... rather than the only thing in it (whom things are happening to). I prefer my current position.
I guess I'm in the wrong job, living the worng life. 

House is getting clean...
Made more smoothie today.
Life is good.
I will walk today.


Long Lost Update

Well... here I am posting in the ol' livejournal.

I've been out of work for almost a month.  Yes that is correct.  True story:  I was headbutted by a retarded guy with a mullet.
Resulting in concussion a la Post Concussive Syndrome.
The upside to all this is.... Because I'm not working and work is not sucking the life out of me ... I'm finally getting the mental energy I need back.  I'm enjoying life again.  I'm doing things like - reading, cleaning the house, lj-ing etc. - things I cannot seem to get done when i function as a normal working adult.

In other news... I've fallen in love with my chiropractor.   I had never seen a chiropractor before... and I have no idea why.  Prior to my injury I had some lower back pain.  If I rode anywhere or sat on the couch too long, even getting up in the morning I was in pain, and would walk as if I were cripple.   I felt cripple.  I just accepted the pain, figured it was just something I had to deal with. I was convinced I just had early onset of arthritis.  I was fat.  I started taking MSM. Ha - I'm 26 & resigned to the fact I just had to live in pain.... Thats outrageous, I'm sorry.

My first visit to the chiropractor, he popped my saccrum back into place and no pain... well minimal pain... I'm no longer hunched over and cripple upon standing.  My main gripe is... why don't doctors, as in family physicians, suggest chiropractic work?   It's been my only relief after this injury.  If I hadn't sought out the treatment on my own (or upon recommendation of a friend) I would still be suffering a whole heck of a lot more. Me = Totally fed up with standard Western Medicine. I could rant for hours.

In other news.  I bought a blender.  I'm a smoothie queen.  My favorite concoction of late:
Juice of 2 oranges
Juice of 1 pear
Blended with - 1 banana, 3 or 4 strawberries, handful of raspberries
1 tbsp Raw coconut butter
1 tbsp chia seeds
drizzle of Raw honey

Hello goodness... I've been having these for lunch.

More "other news"... am back to school. Go me!